I’ve had quite a lot of experiences in my young life… some
I have had to wonder why I went through, some I was happy I went through and
some I never thought I could go through. They all have one thing in common… I
went through them.
I wiped hot tears off my face, swallowed the salty
saliva that had gathered in my mouth, looked up, touched my chest and promised
myself NEVER to trust…..what is the point of trusting? I’d rather trust a dog
than humans. If you think I keep things to myself, it’s not because I’m
secretive or deceptive, it’s just a way to keep people off my life so I don’t
become vulnerable to the extent of being hurt. Yes, vulnerability-Trust makes
you vulnerable and vulnerable people are weak people, at least, that’s what I
have been made to think. But wait… should I really trust again? How do I trust
someone who went deep into my heart, drew out my most innermost feelings, gets
into some of the most private details of my life (the type you whisper to GOD)
and then throws it away in the wind and shares it with “someone” who then
shares it with another “someone” till my private life is made public.
This is a heart echo, one that indicates what goes on
in many hearts…..hearts that have been through something called pain, hearts
that hurt so bad and have been dented by various occurrences. *Sighs* Trust is a subject I’ve been thinking
about for quite a while now and I’ll say trust is “voluntarily making yourself
totally dependent on another for some outcome or another, or for some result or
consequence”. Trusting is like presenting someone a blank sheet of paper…… its
left to the person what becomes of the paper. But let’s think together: Should
a single incident stop one from trusting? Should one cut off the head just
because of a headache? Will bars erected round one’s heart provide sure
protection against hurting? At what point should one stop trusting?
Join me in the next post as we dig deeper into TRUST
and how it plays in our lives. Please don’t forget to drop your comments and
also feel very free to disagree with me on any issue.
Thanks for dropping by.
Similolu
